I feel so far away today

One of my best friends just got married and my heart ached that I couldn't there (I miss you Sara and am so beyond happy for you!) It was going to be my first time being in a wedding and I was beyond excited and honored to be a bridesmaid (if anyone needs a baby blue satin charmeuse bridesmaid dress I gotchu).

My mom was sending me pictures and videos from the special day from all the way across the world as I laid in bed with tears running down my face wishing that I could be there. I love my job most of the time but it's situations like this that suck and make me feel powerless.

I am so grateful to Sara for being so understanding and kind. She's one of those friends that you know will remain constant no matter the physical distance or amount of time.

Sometimes I wonder if this career is worth it. It must be worth something if I feel called to it, or so I tell myself. Maybe I'm becoming more of a pessimist or maybe my frontal lobe is developing; I'm really not so sure.

I'm all the way on the other side of the world from almost all of my family and friends but today it feels like I'm even father. Streaming classic country and Coming Home Song by Sammy Rae and the Friends to help me feel all the feelings and bring me comfort.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLUvCnr_CGg